Taking the first and most important step

by Anne-Sophie

in Blog

A few weeks ago, I FINALLY admitted to myself and to the people around me that I have an eating disorder and that I have had it for about 14 years or so.

It is a shameful thing to admit.

There are different causes of anorexia. I never thought that I looked too fat or wanted to be a model or anything in that direction. I have just always been terribly scared of not being accepted for who I am.
My weight is what defines me. It is who I am. I am thinking about what food and exercise 24/7 and have been doing that for more than a decade. I worry about it every second of the day.

Like I said, my goal has never been to be skinny because I thought that it looked nice. Being skinny is just the result of trying to prove my body wrong, of trying to be as strict with myself as I possibly can, of trying to show my family that I was good at one thing:staying in shape.

But I am exhausted. It has gone too far. I can`t live like that anymore.
I can honestly tell you that I cannot remember EVER enjoying a single meal WITHOUT thinking of the consequences, without thinking about a way to get rid of it. It is a prison and I just now realized that this isn`t normal, that it cannot be the way to live life.

I need help. I need it fast. I know that now.

It is time to start the battle against my eating disorder.


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Kiki January 3, 2011 at 12:43 pm

*hugs* wish you all the best Anne!
Krissy xx


Anne (aka. anneso87) January 4, 2011 at 8:18 am

thanks, Krissy!


ilea02 January 5, 2011 at 1:10 am

*hugs* you can do it. Just the fact that you have admitted it and are telling people is a huge step. You rock.

I love you! Let me know if I can help at all.


knitnmom January 5, 2011 at 1:20 am

You are being very brave and you have friends both near and far who will support and encourage you!
Amy aka Knitnmom


Joyfulmom January 5, 2011 at 1:52 am

Hugs! I'm so proud of you Hon! You ARE going to beat this. If you need us, you know how to reach us! We are praying for you & cheering you on as you walk this hard but passable road! Love you Hon!!


Marker76 January 5, 2011 at 4:02 am

My own daughter has gone down this road with an eating disorder, so I understand what an important first step you have made. I hope you can find the help you need to overcome this. My daughter says the person that helped her the most was her nutrionist/dietician. Know that you will be in my prayers as always.

aka MaryJ76


Christine January 5, 2011 at 4:17 pm

You are a brave woman and I am so very proud of
you. I'm here for you and I will keep you in
my thoughts and prayers every day.

I love you very much.




Geoff January 5, 2011 at 11:18 pm

Glad you were given the strength and support to admit it to yourself and others. Praying that the Lord Jesus Christ will help you move forward. Your friends are here for you too!


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