The Hangover Parts I, II & III

May 26, 2011

When I came to the clinic, I had not been taking antidepressants for almost a year.After a week or two of my treatment, I was feeling so “down” that I agreed to start taking a light antidepressant again. At first, I felt like this was a step back; I had been so sure that I […]

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Lost & Found

May 25, 2011

A year ago today I flew back home from LA after I watched the series finale with my fellow LOST friends at the Orpheum theater. I left the city of angels taking with me a multitude of memories, laughter, tears, melancholy, new found friends and a heart full with gratitude and bliss. A year ago […]

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Moving (again)

May 23, 2011

Can’t get enough? Here’s more:Don’t forget to browse the archives!

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Disturbing the idyll

May 22, 2011

Yesterday morning, my feelings were so overwhelming that I made an issue of VOGUE suffer… After that outburst of aggression, I broke down in tears and was sobbing in my husband’s arms for what felt like an eternity. It felt good to let it all out.  Can’t get enough? Here’s more:Don’t forget to browse the […]

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May 20, 2011

The last 3 nights were horrible. I hardly slept and when I fell asleep for an hour or tour, I woke terrified and  soaked in sweat.  In one single therapy session last week, we talked about my brother, then my husband and I went to Germany last weekend because I had an appointment for a […]

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My husband & Father Roderick

May 18, 2011

OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! So, this morning, I was listening to episode #782 of “The Break” with Father Roderick and around the 43 minute mark, I heard that my husband dedicated an episode to me.  First, I thought I had misheard what Father Roderick was saying, then I started to tremble. I was so touched […]

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May 16, 2011

Can I just say that Nicola is the best cousin in the world???!!! I received this in the mail a couple of days ago. Thank you, Nicola, for all your support, for your daily messages, for making me laugh, for continuously cheering for me and for not letting me give up.  I love you deerly!!!  […]

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I had to leave the program

May 15, 2011

…. for a about 10 days.On Thursday, I had several very emotional, very intense conversations with my counselor, my therapist and other members of the team. I was pleading, telling them, they could not just let me go in the state that I am in right now, with the thoughts that I have and without […]

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May 13, 2011

… I am too exhausted to write a blog post.I would have lots to tell you because there have been major changes in the last 30 or so hours, but all I need to do now is sleep. Come back tomorrow, it’ll be worth it. P.S. Why in the world did was yesterday’s post deleted? Or where […]

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Not a good way to start the day

May 12, 2011

It is 9:10 am and I am already more than stressed out because of what lies ahead of me today.I do not have one single hour to relax, I have so many therapies, so much to take care of and it just keeps getting more and more. And at the same time, I keep thinking, […]

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May 11, 2011

Since I had to stay at the clinic again last weekend, my husband came by on Saturday morning.We had a late breakfast (almost miraculous: BOTH of us ate and we actually enjoyed it! How times have changed…) while brainstorming about the name of my (hopefully soon to be realized) first podcast. It was a phenomenal […]

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Priorities in May

May 10, 2011

So, it is May 10th and I have not even told you what my goals and priorities for this month are. My very first priority is easy to guess: continuing to fight my eating disorder, trying to be as strong as possible and gain weight. As I have told you before, I am participating in the Podcasting […]

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