Cooking to Fight Anorexia

by Anne-Sophie

in Blog

Yesterday I was really, really sick (I still feel super weak and shivery) and had to cancel my cooking class AGAIN. I was so disappointed because I had mentally prepared myself and had fought some major battles inside. From Sunday to Monday night, I had nightmares of spaghetti and tomato sauce. So, yes, you guessed it; spaghetti arrabbiata was the meal I wanted to cook. Carbs are still hard for me to eat, especially at night. I have always eaten my “larger” meals for lunch and ate something light (if at all) for dinner. Needless to say this this was going to be a major challenge, but I was determined to rise to it.

Having to stay at home, I refused to give in and instead cooked the spaghetti here, slightly delirious, but with a lot of purpose. I have to admit that I hardly tasted anything because of my cold, but I ate a – what I thought was a – normal portion and, well, I am still alive.

I was so very proud of myself and still am. This was a huge step forward. Just a few months or even weeks ago, I would have refused to eat anything at all. I just did not see the point of consuming

any calories when all I did was lie in bed. But not anymore. I was hungry and I ate. So what? I did not wake up with a body out of control or with tons of kilos more on the hips. But I woke up with a feeling of joy and pride because of what I had accomplished on the night before. I think that this was an even more important step for me because I did it alone and did not even have the help of my fellow girls in the cooking class.

We can change. It is hard and it takes a lot of time and DETERMINATION.

But if you really want to stop suffering, you can. If I can do it, anybody can.

Keep Fighting every single day. 

 

Bild: “Spaghetti all’arrabbiata” von Giovanni JL
Quelle: Wikimedia Commons

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Svenja Sennhauser October 14, 2011 at 11:03 am

Liebe Frau Reinhart!

Wow, Sie können stolz auf sich sein! Sie haben vollkommen recht, dieses Menü allein zuhause gekocht zu haben ist ein noch viel größerer Erfolg als in der Kochgruppe :-)
Ausserdem habe ich gelesen, dass es ihnen gerade nicht so gut geht.
Geben Sie nicht auf und besinnen Sie sich auf all das Positive was die gute. Tage so mit sich bringen! Sie haben anstregngende Tage hinter sich mit all dem Medienrummel- gönnen sie sich nun eine Pause un Erholung.
Wir sehen uns nächste Woche! Ich wünsche ihnen eine gute Kochsession am Montag.
Herzliche Grüße,
Svenja Sennhauser

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anneso87 October 17, 2011 at 9:09 am

Vielen Dank für die liebe Nachricht, Frau Sennhauser.
Das hat mich am Freitag wirklich aufgebaut und ich konnte dadurch alles wieder etwas in Perspektive rücken.
Danke dafür!

Lg

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Svenja Sennhauser October 14, 2011 at 11:05 am

Oh, habe einige Rechtschreibfehler eingebaut- ist nicht so einfach mit dem iPhone :-)

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