Mommy, I understand now.

November 18, 2011

The power of dreams. Last night I had the weirdest and scariest dream in a while. Due to the sleeping medication that I still have to take every evening, I dream very vividly. However, this dream was different. Very much so. I dreamt of my mother. She was younger than she is now, or at […]

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You Are Beautiful by Farnoosh Brock

November 16, 2011

When I was 16 years old, I would get every issue of Mademoiselle, my favorite magazine. This was not only because I was crazy about all things French-sounding but also because that was my idea of happiness and beauty. I then entered a period of obsession with food, especially as a result of all the […]

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True Beauty

November 12, 2011

“True beauty lies deep within. No matter what you look like on the outside, if you know you are beautiful, nothing can change that.” I think that this quote by Amy Davis speaks for itself. It  embodies everything every living and breathing person should believe. But why do we find it so hard to completely, earnestly and […]

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Cooking to Fight Anorexia II

November 1, 2011

My husband LOVES meat, all kinds of meat and every day in huge amounts. Through him, I have come to love a good steak or lamb. Since the day we met up with my wonderful friend Alison in Munich, where he ate half a goose, he talked about cooking a goose for us. Yet, I was […]

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Learning to Believe in Myself

October 26, 2011

Yesterday evening, I was interviewed live on a show called “TalkTäglich”. The show is 20 minutes long and I was supposed to be the main focus of the evening. Needless to say, I was nervous. Really, really nervous. I was thinking that I would fail, that I would not know what to say, that I […]

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Beauty comes in ALL sizes

October 18, 2011

Today, I found this video that explains eating disorders very clearly. It is supposed to be for children, but I think that adults will learn a lot when watching this video.   Can’t get enough? Here’s more:Don’t forget to browse the archives!

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Recovery from Anorexia

October 17, 2011

Today, I would like to encourage you to read the following article that was published in The New York Times back in April. I don’t know what your response to this article is, but mine was to get up, eat a yoghurt and promise myself to BE ONE OF THOSE WHO WILL BE FULLY […]

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Giving in to Cravings to Fight Anorexia

October 14, 2011

Today, the voice in my head screams louder than it did in the last 3 or 4 weeks.   I feel fat and bulky and my stomach seems 10 times bigger than yesterday. Today, I don’t know if I can live with my body, with my thighs, my stomach, my big face. I do not […]

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Anorexia in the News

October 12, 2011

Can’t get enough? Here’s more:Don’t forget to browse the archives!

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Cooking to Fight Anorexia

October 11, 2011

Yesterday I was really, really sick (I still feel super weak and shivery) and had to cancel my cooking class AGAIN. I was so disappointed because I had mentally prepared myself and had fought some major battles inside. From Sunday to Monday night, I had nightmares of spaghetti and tomato sauce. So, yes, you guessed […]

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Anorexia on the runways

October 10, 2011

Not to beat a dead horse, BUT when I saw these pictures of recent fashion shows, my breath caught. How in the world can this be allowed with the number of eating disorders increasing year after year? Why does the fashion world not take responsibility and send healthy girls down the runway? I know that there […]

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October 2, 2011

For the first time since I left the sanatorium, I looked at pictures of myself taken over the last 4 or 5 years. And I am horrified. I spent hours looking at those pictures yesterday, not being able to fathom what I saw. I cannot believe how distorted my self-perception was. I look at pictures […]

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