Fat is NOT a feeling…

May 16, 2012

You cannot BE FAT. Fat is a substance and you can’t ever be a substance! Whenever you feel fat, ask yourself what you are really feeling in this moment. Scared? Tired? Frustrated? Jealous? Lonely? Anxious? Depressed? Tired? What is the root cause of your feeling? I always felt inadequate, lonely, depressed and simply not enough […]

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A Letter to Little Me

May 15, 2012

I tried to write this post over and over again, but I always reverted back to one of my all-time favorite songs of Pink. I have been a fan of her since her very first song, have seen her in concert (which was on of the best concerts I’ve ever had the pleasure to see […]

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Role Model Roll Call

May 13, 2012

There are three people that come to mind when I think of role models: my sister, my husband and Portia de Rossi. Let me explain… My sister has always, always been my biggest rock, my soul mate and the girl I looked up to despite her being three years younger than me. I love her […]

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May 12, 2012

In a few short minutes, I’ll head out the door and take a train to visit my sister. I haven’t seen her in a while and I am super excited to spend tonight and tomorrow morning with her. Why am I telling you this? Well, the thing is that this is a huge step for […]

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I want you to understand that…

May 11, 2012

Your eating disorder is not your friend. Your eating disorder is your worst enemy. No matter what Ed/Ana/Mia tells you, it’s a lie. Eating disorders are inherently belittling, deceiving, mean creatures. They promise you that everything will get better if you only listen to their sweet words, but in reality everything gets worse if you […]

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Only Words?

May 10, 2012

5 Words on My Experience with Anorexia: Misery I cannot describe those 14 years in other words but misery. I was miserable from the moment I woke up until the moment I went to sleep. Everything felt worthless. Life seemed to be about agony. I couldn’t see what other people found so worth-wile about it. […]

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Vive La Difference!

May 10, 2012

Being different is the essence of this world. There’s hardly anything that fascinates me more than looking at different cultures and races. I love seeing the rituals that people in Africa still follow. I love looking at traits Asian people seem to have in common. I even like to see similarities between family members. But […]

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A Picture is Worth a Thousand Words

May 8, 2012

* *I am participating in the first ever Hungry For Change Blogger Challenge. Throughout the entire month of May, I’ll write one post a day all about the topic of eating disorders. Can’t get enough? Here’s more:Don’t forget to browse the archives!

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Doctor Doctor

May 6, 2012

What do we need from our doctors when anorexia or any other eating disorder is threatening our health and possibly our lives? This topic is a difficult one for me. Why? Well, the medical professional who should have looked after me was my father and he neglected to help me the entire time. Thinking about […]

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Body Appreciation Day

May 5, 2012

Since today is body appreciation day, I dug up an old blog post of mine that I wrote on Thanksgiving last year. Here’s what I had to say: In the last 14 years, I spent an uncountable amount of hours staring at myself in the mirror, looking for imaginary fat or checking if one could see any […]

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Anorexia and Recovery Slogans

May 4, 2012

Anorexia destroys. It doesn’t help you. It doesn’t heal you. It doesn’t make anything better. It only destroys. It hurts. It finds its way into your life and holds you imprisoned, making you believe all kinds of lies and misrepresentations. It destroys your body, your relationships, your health and your life. There is nothing, nothing, good […]

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My Recovery Mascot

May 3, 2012

* I love the idea of creating your own recovery mascot. I thought long about what would represent my way to health for me. Would it be human or an animal? Real or fictional? What would it stand for exactly? Then one thought popped into my head: our inner child. I have come to understand […]

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